Oh my god choir’s starting again tomorrow evening.
Now I can’t tell if this fear is something ingrained in me or if it’s something I’ve taught myself? Like it wasn’t that bad at the start but after thinking about it so much it’s gotten worse and I can’t tell if I constructed it myself? But then again, all fear is self-made isn’t it.
On the bright side, I have 5 days of choir, then I’m off to Australia for a week, then I only have one week left of choir for 2013. Then later I’ll only have six more months of this hell-hole.
I also have to decide if I want to stay in the committee. If this carolling goes bad I’ll quit. I don’t want to wait for the bullshit of tour next year.